As I slow down I sense there is something else for me. The quiet and the darkness and the stillness and the slowing down help me to listen and to question. I am thinking about how I might return to my original shape, to myself. I have been pressed down, stretched, twisted and tried. I want to reconnect with myself - to what I love, to what is deep within, to what the busyness of my life has obscured.
Perhaps in this dark cocoon-like space I can reframe 'the waiting' as 'time to contemplate, to connect within, to listen to myself'. This in-between space - this midlife space - offers a chance for the birthing of new ideas and possibilities. Perhaps this in-between space will support the unfolding of a deeper and different self?
I am in the cocoon. It feels dark. Uncertain. But in the cocoon my soul incubates. Perhaps this space is a place to connect with possibility, fertility, creativity and wholeness.
So I will still myself. I will be open and patient with the being. With the becoming. Becoming takes time. I will STAY in the waiting. I will TRUST in the waiting. I will LET GO in the waiting. I will GROW in the waiting. I will be REAL in the waiting.